What you see. What you don’t see. What God sees

For everyone has sinned; we all fall short of God’s glorious standard. Romans 3:23

Hi. My name is Tara. And I. Am….  a sinner. You’d almost never know it by my Facebook posts, but I can assure you, I’m definitely a sinner.

I snap pictures of my sweet little bambinos and post them on Facebook and title the photo’s with hearts and  hashtags about love and blessings.

I receive a word from God during my quiet time, so I post that on Facebook as well, hoping to encourage anyone who needs it.

I experience a sweet or funny moment in my life and post it on Facebook because I LOVE to share my happy moments with others.

I even write posts about how disciplined I am when it comes to exercise- because I want to motivate others.

Let’s face it. On Facebook I’m just a big ol’ ball of Jesus loving positivity *insert big goofy bubbly smile here.*

THAT’S what you see….

What you don’t see?…

Here’s a little dose of vulnerable honesty from this Jesus loving girl. (And if you could hear me I’d be saying the following in my whisper voice because I’m not exactly proud to admit these things. Shhhhh)

Sometimes, within minutes after I snap those sweet pictures of my #sweetheart bambinos, I lose my cool (and I mean lose it) because one of them might have stolen a toy from the other one causing melt downs all around. OR one of them may have pushed their full plate of lunch over the edge of the table, onto the floor (that I JUST swept). Or 3 of them might be running upstairs through the kitchen (when I had already instructed them NOT to 3 times already)… Or one of them bites the other because  the one wouldn’t share. What ever the scenario might be- I do have freak out’s towards my children. Discipline good- freak out bad.

And sometimes, after I write a Jesus loving post on Facebook to encourage others, I completely forget or don’t put the time and energy into encouraging my husband and children- the ones I should be encouraging the most!

And I definitely DO NOT post my failures, ugly moments, and ginormus goof up’s on Facebook- BUT I do have them, let me tell you!

When I post what I post on Facebook, it’s a  glimpse of who I am, but not limited to who I am. I’m real. I’ve had massive moments of failure and defeat in my life.

Just a few short months ago, I battled postpartum anxiety. I bet you didn’t know that by what I posted on Facebook. I was hanging onto Jesus by a thread- a very thin thread and it was one of the darkest seasons of my life.

I face trials that sometimes cause me to feel defeated. I bet you didn’t know that by what I post on Facebook.

I get frustrated with my children when I shouldn’t. My 3 year old little girl is obsessed with washing her hands. A mother should be absolutely delighted with this…but not this momma. Washing her hands after she goes to the washroom is a 15 minute ordeal- or longer. Soap has to be slathered for at LEAST 5 of those minutes. Hands need to be rinsed for another 5, water somehow manages to find it’s way across the ENTIRE vanity- which takes another 5 min to clean up and that doesn’t include the time it takes  for her to dry her hands. Now, when you have a baby crying down the hall for a bottle and a 2 year old crying downstairs because her ‘jink’ (drink) is empty and needs refilled, I tend to get completely frustrated as opposed to ecstatic by the hand washing ordeal. I bet you didn’t know THAT by what I post on Facebook.

Oh…and I bet you’d never know by my posts on Facebook that after I do my diligent workout on the treadmill, I snack my face off more evenings then not….(yes, gluttony IS a sin)

And I’m not proud to admit it but since I’m being honest- I kicked the dog the other day because I was tired of tripping on her while I was trying to make supper. When you have 4 children ages 5 and under, your patience is pretty much zilch. Zero for the dog. Zeeeerooooo. I also may have had a few choice words for her as well but we won’t even go there… I bet you didn’t know THAT by what I post on Facebook either. (Don’t be too alarmed. It was more of a firm shove then a kick …and she wasn’t injured)

There’s a list that goes much longer then this but I’ll spare you the details. And so the truth:  I post happy moments on Facebook. Those moments are REAL and they are good, but that doesn’t mean that my life is all fairy tale. I just LOVE to spread positivity and when there’s a positive moment, I jump at the opportunity to share it. But that doesn’t mean that I’m Mrs. Positivity all day every day. Good grief, no way- that would just be a lie. Some days I’m Pitty Party Patty or Martha Meany Or Angry Alma or Emma the Emotional or Tara Talks To Much….*sigh*

So what can you take away from all of this?

Don’t ever get discouraged when you look at someone’s Facebook page, or instagram and twitter account and see their ‘perfect’ positive lives. Those are but snapshots- not the entire photo album. Don’t think that everyone has it all together because they don’t. I don’t. You don’t. No one does. Don’t allow your mind to wander to that dreaded spirit of comparison either. We tend to look at the happy moments of others on Facebook and start to compare our lives with theirs-That’s a danger zone.

I’m learning to embrace  the moments in my life- the perfect Facebook worthy moments AND the not so pretty moments as well. It’s in those not so pretty moments that my character is developed. Those moments give me opportunity to draw near to Jesus. I can count on His forgiveness and I can allow Him to change and transform me as I draw close to Him. And I can praise and glorify Him for the perfect Facebook worthy moments. I can praise Him for that is when His goodness is shinning through me.

Can I get an AMEN?

T:) Xo

 

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4 thoughts on “What you see. What you don’t see. What God sees

  1. Oh my gosh. EVERY. SINGLE. WORD. This is sooo much my day every single day!!! I admit I have stumbled into that “comparison” trap thinking that I must be the only one who loses it. FB does paint such wonderful pictures you don’t think about the behind-the-scenes parts you don’t see and ooohhh boy, do we have some doozies! Thank you Tara for being so real and so transparent. Lots of love and prayers for you!!! ♡♡♡♡

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