A wife In Progress (series) Part 2- Spirit of Control

As I walked around my kitchen this morning, praising Jesus, worshipping and thanking Jesus, and just laying all the details of my life at His feet, I felt wonderful. I was in His presence and I was at rest, at peace and determined to cary out any task that He would have asked me to do. “Jesus,” I said ” I’m READY to be the wife that you’ve designed me to be. Let’s do this!”

It was in that moment that God opened my eyes to revisit a certain area in my heart (an area that I mentioned in my last video blog- Dec 22nd) My need to be in CONTROL. “Oh Jesus, we just had such  a great time in prayer…do we really need to go there right now?” And He reminded me “Tara, you just told me that you were ready to take on anything that I would have you do….so let’s face this issue that you’ve been avoiding for some time now…”  In that moment, I knew that I had to start to face this area in my life- this need to have to be in control of everything- Including trying to control Dave.  Now..the funny part is that I’m not in control of anything! Even though I try, all  of my efforts are merely  causing me to be weary and exhausted and burnt out and FRUSTRATED.  Watch the video below…I’ll chat with you a bit about what God has shown me and what He’s started walking me through doing  in just the last couple of days.

As the above video was processing, I was going through scripture and asking God to show me where this need to control is stemming from…He revealed to me that it’s because of lack of trust in Him. OUCH. I’m not trusting God with every detail of my life- every situation, and circumstance….Now in my head I know that most certainly HE IS THE ONE TO TRUST- especially above my abilities! So here it goes! This week I will be mediating on these TRUST scriptures. I need to give up the control today. It’s a leap of faith but it’s needs to be taken. So here it goes!….

Jesus, forgive me for not trusting you wholly and completely. My flesh cries out to take control when things don’t make sense in my mind or when I see a situation from MY perspective and not Yours. I know that by trying to be in control of my life and in control of my family, I am only getting in Your way and putting up road blocks where you are trying to work. So tonight I repent and I surrender and I trust that You know best and trust that You have amazing plans for me and my husband. Have your way Lord and guide me Holy Spirit throughout the days to come as I give up my control to You. Work in my life, my marriage, my children- every detail of my life, I hand it over to You. In your precious name, Jesus. Amen

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A Wife In Progress (series) Part 1

OK ladies! I think that my video pretty much says it all at this point so there’s not too much to write…  God has been saying “focus on your family, focus on your marriage”- for months now I get a little nudge every single day…He’s been reminding me over and over ‘family before ministry’- and day after day I feel that I’ve failed in putting my husband first.  Every day that I’d sense this nudge, I’d follow with “HOOOWWWWW do I do that???? How do I put my family first?” I’d had the false notion that to put family first meant that I had to ignore my needs, desires, dreams and visions from God and spend every spare moment with my husband and children.  And this morning, revelation came…. Please watch my video …… (Click the link below if you can’t see the video)

So, the title of the book I’m reading (because I didn’t do a very good job of showing you the book in my video! sorry bout that) is called…. The Beautiful Wife by Sandy Ralya

I hope to connect with you on this journey… xox

Blessings,

T:)

Christmas- Fresh Vision 2013

As I sit here overwhelmed at my kitchen table, I’ve decided to take a step back and take a deep breath. Once again this year, I’ve left all of my Christmas shopping and wrapping and ‘Christmas day get together with family planning’ all to the very end…Not too mention the fact that I’m mentally preparing to return to work after being off for a year with my children and trying to plan a little birthday party for our little girl who turns 1 the day before I go back to work (less then 3 weeks away) …ahhhh ..again…stop, deep breath Tara.

Today my mind is racing. I’ve been sick and I’m still not 100%. My children are sick as well which just adds to my state of being overwhelmed and restless….

Christmas time as a christian should not be like this. It shouldn’t be about stressing over Christmas shopping and gift buying. It shouldn’t be about running around making sure you have the exact same amount of gifts for each child so that the others don’t feel left out…It shouldn’t be about trying to live up to the traditions that have been passed down from generation to generation… It’s about Christ- so WHY, at this time of year, do I completely lose focus of Christ and become overwhelmed?

And then it hit me… once more, it’s the plan of the enemy to divert our attention from Christ and onto ourselves. Its his plan to want me (us) to become overwhelmed at this time of year, running from store to store to get ‘things’ for loved ones. When he can succeed in doing that, then he’s had his way. And if he can’t get to us by stressing us out about last minute shopping and getting to the gazillion family gatherings that there are to get to, then he’ll get us by telling us we’re not giving enough to the needy or to those who can’t afford a merry Christmas, making us feel as though we need to be out saving the world.

As I got started on wrapping some gifts for my children today, tears started to pour from eyes down my cheeks, causing me to to have to stop wrapping because I couldn’t see through the tears. “I’ve been getting wrong all these years Lord, haven’t I?” I whispered to myself…

For the past 3 years, each year at Christmas time, I’ve become more and more restless and stressed ….and I think there’s more to it then the fact that I’ve been doing last minute shopping. Today, thoughts raced through my mind… out in the world, there are children who are dying of starvation- not only in foreign countries but there are families in our own communities just struggling to pay bills and put food on the table at this time of year who don’t have any extra money to buy even one gift for their child. There are families in our own communities who are taking care of their elderly parents, or their children who are sick with a terminal illness who need the love of Christ- a smile, a word of encouragement, prayer, financial help….

Maybe I’m the only Christian who has lost focus over the years of what this time of year really represents. It’s supposed to be Christ focused- not me focused, not gift focused, not tradition focused.

Now I know that I can’t save the world. I know that I can’t carry ALL of these burdens. I know that Christ would never ask me to solve all of the world’s problems or cause me feel that I need to. BUT, I do believe and know that He wants me to take part in spreading His love and blessing others during the Christmas season. I do believe that He would cause me to do random acts of kindness. I do believe that He would have my family take part every year in blessing a family/families in need… And so this year, we will do just that… Not because I feel stressed into doing it or pressured but because my heart breaks for those who have less then me…and because Jesus has blessed me and my family so much and because Jesus has loved me so much, I’m compelled by that same love to give back to others. Nothing is too small, nothing is too big. No blessing is to small. No blessing is to big.

It’s time to start giving back…and what better time to start then right now- Christmas 2013…and to take it a step further and carry it out throughout the year- there’s always someone in need and there’s always SOMETHING we can give back- our time, our finances, our prayers, our friendship, our gifts and talents…there’s always something.

Lord, I always pray and ask that You would break my heart for what breaks Yours….Well, today You did just that. Today You’ve given me fresh vision and a deeper revelation of Your love. Lord, lead us and guide us to those who we can help. Show us who needs a smile. Show us who needs a hug. Show us who needs a word of encouragement. Show us that family that needs a financial blessing…lead us to those You want us to minister to. May we be Your hands and feet..not just at Christmas, but all year ’round….

Amen ❤

Blessings,

T:)

Spiritual Gifts

I’ve asked God several times over the past few years…what’s my purpose in life? What am I meant to do for you Lord? Is there more to what I’m already doing?….and what He’s told me is that my # 1 purpose is to fall more and more in love with Him. He’s also prompted me to get to know myself and become aware of the spiritual gifts that He’s given me. Once you know who you are in Christ and once you embrace your spiritual gifts, doors of opportunity will be opened!

Are you using the gifts that God has given you? Do you know the spiritual gifts that He’s given you?

If you read Ephesians 4:11-12 you’ll see that the main goal for using our spiritual gifts is to equip and build up the body of Christ. It’s not for our own benefit. Also, our gifts were never given to us to keep tucked away.

Watch the video below to hear what I have to say 🙂

1 Corinthians 12; 14:12 are great to check out some more about what God says about spiritual gifts.

Find out your spiritual gifts if you don’t know what they are! The Spiritual gifts test takes about 10-15 minutes to do.

Leave a comment below if you feel led to share what your spiritual gifts are! I’d love to hear from you.

Remember- YOU DO have a purpose! Keep seeking Jesus as your #1 purpose in life and just watch what He does!

God bless!!

T:)

The Imperfections Of A Jesus Loving Mom

As a mom, I tend to second guess myself ALL the time….Did I let my children watch too much TV today? Was that movie appropriate? Should I be praying more with them? Are they understanding who Jesus is when I explain who He is? Am I doing too much of this or not enough of that??

Oh my…it goes on and on. And so today- I say NO MORE. Today, I chose to take the pressure off and cast all my cares to the foot of the cross. Today I ask Jesus to show me how to be the mom that He’s called me to be..and today….Jesus reassures me that even though I’m not a perfect mom, it’s ok. He calls me to seek Him…He calls me to get on my face before Him….and so I do- and I realize that I can’t do this mom thing with out Him. I just can’t…and I don’t even want to try to do it on my own.

To hear more of my heart on this issue watch my video below. Click the link if you can’t see the video.

 

 

*2nd Corinthians 12:9~10 Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.”…….. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

*Philippians 1:6~ And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue to do his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns. 

Jesus, I thank You that you’re not done the work in us that you’ve started. I thank You that it’s not our abilities and strength that we are to rely on, but it’s on your grace we stand and have hope and courage and the confidence that we need to be the best mom that we can be. When we fall, you lift us back up and in the times that we fail and fall and trip and stumble…remind us that it’s in those times that we are learning and growing. In those times that we mess up as mom’s, remind us that you are perfecting us shaping us. Thank you for your forgiveness and mercy. What would we do with out you…We are desperate for you Lord. We invite you in to every single detail of our lives. Have your way.

In Jesus’ name- Amen

Get Back Up!

As women of God, I think sometimes we get all caught up thinking that our lives need to be pretty and calm and have that “I have it all together” appeal. We feel that we need to have perfect looking package on the outside to be able to ‘set the example’ for other christian women…. Well, God said to me- ‘you’re not doing anyone any favours by trying to look as though you have it all together- especially not yourself.’ Our lives aren’t always pretty or perfect and if you know a woman who claims she has it all together, well…. (insert whisper voice here) I think she might be fibbing 0.o

I’m here today to talk to you in my video about how I messed up very big this passed weekend. I was far from a picture perfect mom, wife or daughter of God. I was caught up in real life and lost focus of Jesus. I started to believe the doubts the enemy was whispering to me. I gave the devil a foothold by allowing those lies to penetrate my heart and mind. Click on the link below to watch the video

 

Here are the verses that I referenced- look them up and meditate upon them:

*Proverbs 24:16 tells us that the righteous DO fall but to get back up when we do!

*Ephesians 2:4 tells us that we have been saved by grace! (NOT BY WORKS)
We are not saved by what we do or don’t do. We are saved through having faith in Jesus Christ. Plain and simple. Let His grace change your heart….

*Nehemiah 9:17 reminds us that God is compassionate, always forgiving, merciful and rich in unfailing love- (EVEN WHEN WE MESS UP)
Look up these verses for yourselves and really let the truth sink in.

Please feel free to share your comments/thoughts below. I LOVE hearing about what God is doing in your lives and I would love to pray with you if you’re going through something similar to what I just described.

Blessings,

T:)